By: Yasmin Mogahed
Tell me I can get lost
Tell me I can lose myself in your Presence
In the overwhelming moment of real submission
Tell me I can remain forever broken
Tell me I can remain here forever
Away, while still here.
Did not the Prophet say: “Die before your death”?
At first I thought maybe it was only a reminder
to remember our meeting with You.
But then I thought how I wish I could die before my death:
Have a soul that is no longer in this life—even while the body must remain.
A heart that is freed from the shackles of dunya—even while the legs must walk its streets.
Have a nafs that is in complete rest and satisfaction with its’ Lord–even while the crumbling shell remains.
A soul that is already there—even before it is there.
A soul detached.
A nafs mutmainah—in the truest and deepest and realest sense (Quran 89:27)
For as the great scholar said, rahimahuAllah, “He who does not enter the paradise of this life, will not enter the paradise of the next.“